8.31.2006

reality check. check.

pensitivity. the state of being pensive with sensitivity. getting in touch with the inner you. culling out facts of life. processing them. sucking them in. one at a time. synonymous to reflections. taking things slow. listening to that little voice in your head. breather.

inaamin ko. pensive nga akong tao. pero parang noon lang yun.
i used to be very fond of contemplations. and i miss that part of me.
well, i need to make up for lost time.

join me as i dissect life's convoluted intricacies.
disclaimer: points to be considered may be seen as passe. e ano nman ngayon?!?

life is tough
life is indeed tough. and i felt that even more when i started working. it's been a year now. i'm officially a member of the workfield. my first few jobs were menial. people considered it "dirty". stacking paper, fixing things on hours end. it need not require of mental stimulation. brain activity was a zilch.

having finished school with flying colors, others might think i'm crazy for ever saying yes to the job.
but i'm a believer in the principle of working your way to the top. well, it paid off. after a couple of months, i got hired as a regular. and i'm being paid decently. i mean, i could buy things i want and help the family:)

but there WAS a catch. i needed to live away from home. and was thrown to faraway land.
i thought i couldn't get by. i had shed buckets of tears. felt my lowest. missing home sucks.


I believed that God has a greater plan. i've grown mature because of it. learned to become independent. stronger and tougher under crazy circumstances. things seeemed to fall into place. His goodness was ever present, as in, there was not a single moment that God failed me. I continually unraveled His goodness, and life was more exciting because of it.

"you have to step out of your comfort zone so that you could see how God moves mightily."
He would never leave you. He's right smack in the middle of every circumstance. Acknowledge it:)

yes, life is tough...

but we can be tougher
i just heard a breaking news. it was heartbreaking.
do i have the right to speak of it? i'm not sure.

i received an IM from my sister: BUZZ! call ***. she needs us.

her phone was ringing wildly. please pick up. and finally, she lifted the receiver.
she told me each and every scenario. gasping for air. sobbing. choking in tears.
i was downtrodden. i felt for my dear cousin. i tried my best to console her, but i know that being in her place was a completely different story.

"these are the plans i have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future"

i used to think that life should always be about the butterflies-and-the-bees-pinks-and-rosies.
but it is in those "troubled" times that we grow as a person. yes, it may be disheartening to the point that you wouldn't have the strength to go for anything you've ever aspired.

but it is only after life's storms would you realize that things are swell in the end.
this may be cheesy or what. but having a greater Being, knowing that He exists, gives life more meaning.
well, that's how i see it. it's comforting to know that life could come clearer.
yes, there are options. choices. or paths we opt to take. and right, that's free will we have there. but putting God in the midst of all these somehow sets things apart. making Him top priority is like laying stones for us.

i'm not rubbing things in. or slapping them at your face. i'm just stating a fact that has been real in my life.
it's cool to experience God. He's more than an "idol" that we should revere.
He's an active Maker. and He wants to get involved with our lives.
you can test Him, and see how awesome He truly is:D

yes, life can be sucky. but in those times, never ever think that you're world had crumbled.
always listen to that little voice inside you.
God is there all along, we were just too busy to even hear Him call.


preachy? i know. so what?

.:0 SpanK Me:.

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