7.31.2005

No Curfew

(Sounds like a familiar tagline from a certain brand of clothing. teehee!)

Yesterday, i was hanging out at lai's place when one of my kid cousins tried making conversation and started it this way...

Nicole: Ate miday, do you have curfew?
Me: No. why?
Nicole: Wala lang. Hindi ba nakakatulog yung parents niyo when you're not yet home?
Me: Nakakatulog. Wala kaming curfew ever since... basta umuuwi, okay na yun.
(then Kax joined in...)
Kax: Talaga?
Me: Yup! basta alam nman nila who we're with.
Nicole: Ang galing naman.
(end of conversation...)


Come to think of it, we've never really had curfews ever since. I remember going home at the wee hours, and my parents didn't even say anything about it. Are my folks indifferent and negligent? i beg to differ.. they are the most trusting parents a child could ever wish for. (haha. hanep sa build-up!) let's just say that t
rust was never an issue. I even asked my dad this morning,why we never had curfews at home, and he just uttered this, "We trust you kasi." My parents are confident for they have taught us values that have truly helped us. I'm not saying that they're perfect and all that, but i'm just so grateful that they have used the best book one can find in parenting... THE BIBLE!:D

Yep! living in a Christian family, established in the Word can really do wonders. We're not the best breed of people, but we do our best to live lives that are pleasing before our Maker. (oopsie, didn't mean to be preachy there!)

and come on, i could not really picture myself doing "wild" things... teehee. i just realized, that if i'd be compared to people my age... sobrang ignorante ko talaga. well, not that i'm regretting it. i had my fair share of "experimenting", but it's done in controlled environments and with people that i truly trust.
so what, if i've never tried getting sickeningly drunk, puffing cigs, dancing "durrty", and what not... (i'm not being self-righteous here). let's just say, i'm not that comfortable doing those things. i'm more of a laid-back kind of girl. yup, boring to some... but i feel fabulous being this way! PROMISE!:D

no curfew?!? hellooo, sa tanda kong 'to.. puh-lease. i'm 21 for crying out loud... no need of baby-ing. and besides, having "curfews" or "strict rules at home"... doesn't work all the time. i've seen people go through such, and still prevailed with what they want. the reason why i've grown up to be like this is all because of my fear of God... more than my fear with my parents.

it's not about curfew.. conviction strikes harder... get that?

7.30.2005

indecent proposal?

2:30 am. i was about to hit the sack when i heared my phone beep, it lit up and flashed this reminder... "1 SMS received: View now?"

i thought to myself. "WHAAAT??? who would text me this hour???" so, i checked it.. and this was the message shown..
"Ang sungit mo naman kanina..."
(aba. ang kapal naman ng mukha nito!)

so the texting saga began...

Nyek. Ikaw nga diyan ung hindi namamansin e.
Nahihiya kasi ako e.
Hala. Okay ka lng? Para namang hindi tyo magkakilala.
Oo nga e, kelan tayo lalabas?
Ano? Yung mga girls mo, bka mgalit. hehe.
Sobra ka nman. Wala. Single ako.. kaya nga naghahanap e. :)
Alam mo, wag ka maghanap. Gayahin moko, nghihintay lang.
So, ako pala yung hinihintay mo?
Nyek. ang feeling mo naman! are you serious?
Oo nman serious ako...Malay mo, ako lang yung blessing na nka-disguise. haha.
Ano ba yan, ilang years na tayong ganito pero pag magka-harap, parang hindi magkakilala.
Oo nga e, nahihiya kasi ako sa'yo. Ang ganda mo kasi. :)
Hala. Don't be shy, ako lang nman to e.
Oo nga, ikaw lang yun... basta one day, magiging tau din... ay mali makakalabas pala.. haha.

***poof! things ended there!

what was that about???
talk about smooth talking, cheesiness, and what not rolled into one?!?
i used to have a crush on him, and if i'm not in the right frame of mind, things would've transpired within this loooong-going play of words. we're counting years here, honey!
yep. we've been like this for almost 2 years. but as they say, we're friends... just friends! no biggie.
he's been hoping that we'd be an "us" one day... nyehehehehehe! with his reputation, asa pa!

so, what is this? an indecent proposal? or is this a proposal at all???
i would like to see it as "friends trippin" ... haha. joketime/harmless flirting.
yuck. that sounded weird coming from me.
nah. all's good. we're really just friends. well, that's how i see it. i'm not sure if what he's feelin' is fo'real or he's just playin. don't he dare mess with me! (note: no investments of emotions entailed)

friends are friends... proposal or no proposal...
make the most out of a friendship, don't jump into something greater if it ain't meant to be.
that's what i'm doing... go figure!

right to royalty

blue blood. monarchy. royal family... ain't gonna talk about none of those shiiiit... nyahahaha..


thank God it's friday, so they say.
i feel giddy whenever friday comes... chisms galore with my fabulous cousins and oh food food food!
but that's not what i would want to talk about now.


RIGHT TO ROYALTY... what comes to mind???

elite. chosen ones. set apart. cut above the rest. creme de la creme.


i was asked to be the sharer to last night's Bible study.

Topic: What does it mean to be a Christian?

Hmm... tough question. I didn't really have a clue, so i just shared about my life. How I've come to know my Personal Lord and Savior... and continually discovering a life guided by Him.

i didn't share the "academic aspect" of my life.. coz i'm pretty sure that my cousins are sick and tired of hearing that story. I should know better.

I told them about my dealings... from age 11 til present (FYI: i am now 21)... and how i saw God move. God moves in mysterious ways. i didn't expect that my testimony would touch me as well. as i was talking about HIM, my life had been slowly unfolding right before my very eyes - it was a mental picture that became more vivid every moment i uttered His goodness.
i felt an outpour of emotion (good thing, i didn't cry!).... it was an overwhelming feeling. knowing that you've entrusted your forsaken life unto your Maker. And believing that He would do nothing BUT to patch things up... It was not about me, it's all about JESUS.
(yeah yeah, i sound preachy alright!)

To me, that was THE right to royalty. I know i am not an heir to some whatsit kingdom. But my Father, is the King of all Kings... and i would continually live for Him for i know that it'll all be worth-it in the end. (Amen!)

Many are called... only a few were chosen.
I'm glad that God has chosen me to be part of His family. Set apart.
To do greater things for His Name's sake...


*** shift gears... RIGHT TO ROYALTY: The MTv and VH1 Concert at the Fort Open Field***


i am an audiophile. i'm into anything related to music...
i appreciate various genres depending on my mood.

that's why i soo badly want to go to the MTV Concert ... even if my sister warned me about the people who often go to such events. i don't give a damn! hearing that the likes of PINIKPIKAN and CYNTHIA ALEXANDER would be playing, i thought that the crowd wouldn't be those "haaRRdcoRRe RRakistas" (emphasis on RRR meant that it should be pronounced with hard R's). It's not that i'm being judgmental or anything. Cam'an, I'm from UPdiliman.. don't you think I've seen enough of those hardcore rockstar wannabes??? (especially during the infamous UP Fair)

thankfully, my officemate had spare tickets (and i got 'em for free of course!)
... and i was able to find friends to tag along!
too bad, we came late. i thought that the concert would end at the wee hours (ala UP Fair), but to my dismay, the whole "music festival" was through by midnight!!!!
huwaaaaaa???? mag-mistulan daw bang Cinderella na may curfew?!?!?


i got a little irked by the circumstance partly because i missed the good stints, the people there were so annoying, and i only got to stay for a couple of hours max... oh well, my bad!

even if i didn't feel the "royalty" at the said event, there's still the bright side on such things...
the perks? i got to spend QTT with some of my real good friends:D.. chismax unlimited!
we can't seem to have enough of each other's presence so we decided to go to another joint..
19 EAST...
(allow my critic side to come in) the ambiance was good. it was cold and cozy at the same time. there was a laid-back feel to it. conducive for "bonding sessions". oh! and the food was good:D...i would want to visit the place the next time... coz i heard that there are certain bands that do their gigs on their respective days... (note: try to make your schedule.. free as much as possible. haha...as if!)
oh well, we stayed there for some hours. ate, laughed, ate, talked, talked, talked... then we finally decided to call it a night.


before i finally hit the sack, i received a rather peculiar SMS on my phone...


to be continued...

7.29.2005

247 days and counting...

i stumbled onto one of the cool pages of
rootee's bloggie friends, and spotted the
Birthday Calculator. well, i had nothing better to do, so i thought i'd give it a try...

here's what i've found out...
I was born on a Sunday and the moon's phase on that day was new. (hmm. didn't know that!)

I am 11,215,503 minutes old. (525,600 minutes in a year!)

There would be 247 days before i could come face-to-face with my cake which would have 22 candles on it. The heat from these candles can boil 2.51 ounces of water . (that's a cool fact! nyahaha.)

My birthstone, Diamond, was said to increase personal clarity to help one see things clearly as well as be straight-forward and honest. (I believe I am already straight-forward and honest. thankyouverymuch!)

My birth tree is the Rowan (note to self: look it up!) and it somehow explains my personality...
Rowan, the Sensitivity

Full of charm, cheerful, gifted, without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive


This was pretty much insightful!:D That would be all for the day. Gotta go hit the sack... still have work tomorrow (*oopsie,later na pala... tsk tsk.) Au revoir!

7.19.2005

Tag. You're IT!

even if no one tagged me... haha. i'm starting my own "tag cycle"
talk about being pasaway. nyahahaha!

three names you go by:
1. armida elaine
2. miday (the "a" could sometimes be replaced with a "d" or an "s")
3. vivy (can't put the other nickname.. tsk tsk.. dangerous!)

three screen names you have had:
1.frosted icequeen
2.queen a'midala
3.daria

three physical things you like about yourself:
1. my eyes!
2. nose
3. and arsse.. haha.

three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. height
2. my legs.. nyahaha. wish they were a li'l thinner.
3. did i say, height???

three parts of your heritage: Pinoy ako!
1. Spanish (mom's side)
2. Chinese (dad's side)
3. Black (haha... pinaglihi raw ako sa African culture.. hehe)

three things that scare you:
1. losing the people i love
2. disorder! haha. joke..
3. i guess living a life that's nothing. huh? labo.

three of your everyday essentials:

1. Cellie (nyahaha.)
2. Cash
3. That's pretty much it.

three of your favorite musical artists:
1. Enya
2. Makiling Ensemble
3. Bamboo and/or Hale


three of your favorite songs

1. Anything by Enya
2. No Sacrifice by Jason Upton
3. Ten Miles Wide by Solomon's Wish

three things you want in a relationship:
1. Commitment
2. Love (something that's light but gives a fuzzy feeling inside)
3. Accountability

three lies and truths in no particular order:
lies:

1. I am foreign.
2. The Philippines is a poor country. (not really. come on!)
3. It's easy to move on and get back to your life.

truth:
1. God moves in mysterious ways!:D
2. You're family would stick by you.. no matter what.
3. Inequality is all around us. :(

three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. His eyes!
2. Physically fit physique.. haha!
3. His neatness (mukhang mabango)

three of your favorite hobbies:
1.Steady chillin'
2. Surfing.
3. Walking. here, there, and everywhere!

three things you want to do really badly now:
1. lose some weight. (oopsie.. anorexic??)
2. have my hair done!
3. learn how to drive (without letting out some cash... tsk tsk)

three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. Work for an international NGO:D
2. Be an events organizer
3. Be a correspondent (like work for discovery channel, travel&living, probe team)

three places you want to go on vacation:
1. anywhere in France or the Mediterranean:D
2. The Caribbean
3. Morocco

three kid's names you like: (hmm.. hadn't thought of that.)
1. something french or russian sounding.
2. something with "our" names mixed
3. my mind's blank.

three things you want to do before you die:
1. see the world!
2. help mankind (fo' real!)
3. get married and have kids.. give them a good life.

three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. i'm not a girly girl!
2. i'm into boy stuff.. cars, video games, extreme sports
3. did i say i'm not girly???

three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. people see me as demure (dalagang filipina?)
2. i'm shy around boys
3. i am a neatfreak! (is this a girly quality?)

three celeb crushes:
1. Champ (Hale's frontman)
2. Heath Ledger (love his Aussie accent, mayt!)
3. Atom Araullo or Marvin Cruz. (haha. UP celebrities)

my turn to tag...

three people that i would like to see take this quiz:

1. Tekie
2. Fizzy
3. Babyzis

go ahead... and do it!:D

7.09.2005

guess who's back?!?

current mood: sabawness


after loooong months, Nav is suddenly back in the circuit!

it's weird how we met. i believe i've written about him on my previous summer posts... thinking if I like him.

it's so unlike me to get attracted to people i barely even know, but it was his intelligence that had drawn me. (haha. plus, he's cute in a semi-nerdy kind of way!)

we somehow had that connection. then we suddenly lost touch. sadness.

i would just receive offline messages from him saying that he's sad coz we don't get to talk anymore. i guess we were both preoccupied.

then one friday night, a reminder popped into the screen, "nav rinto is now online"

oh my gahd.

out of niceness, i buzzed him and asked what's been up with his life.
he didn't seem like the person i used to talk to. parang ang tamlay niya. it's weird how even through this ym conversation you can tell if the person's okay or not.

so, i asked how he's feeling. he seemed troubled. told me it's about school.
haaay, buhay estudyante
.

suddenly these words came, "okay na ko, kasi kausap na kita." nyak. ...talk about cheesiness.

haha. flattered? yeah. but it still felt a wee bit weird.
our conversation didn't seem that fun and spontaneous anymore. .
what happened to the connection i was talking about?!?

haaay.

i hope things would be different the next time we talk. i miss the old Nav that i have learned to appreciate.
Sure do hope he'd get back to his senses...

7.02.2005

LIFE IT AIN'T EASY

I know, that statement is an OVERRATED CLICHE, but that same group of words had been my most recent realization.

It took me this much time to realize that living in this f*cked up world is no rainbows-and-butterflies. Yeah, i used to have 'trials and troubles', but those that i've been through were no match to what i'm experiencing now.

so. what am i driving at?!?

i'm talking about being in the "real world"... the workplace is a very different and fierce environment, if and when compared with the school life that i got used to for 14-friggin-looong-years. Now, i understand and feel my parents when they mutter, "Pagod ako!" nakakapagod nga palang mag-trabaho. i was getting so tired with my new "job" that i almost felt like quitting. don't get me wrong, it's not that i don't like what i'm doing. What i meant was that, IT IS TRULY PHYSICALLY TAXING. seems like my energy's being sucked out each and every damn day. perhaps, i was just hung-over with my bummed life. hindi kasi ako sanay mapagod ng sobra.

i spent days bawling that my eyes already hurt. i used to question God... what was His plan??? what am i doing at GreenPeace??? Am i really for this??? My parents saw me in such an unhappy state... i know it pains them to see me like this, but they tried to hide their emotions so that i could learn to be strong by my own. they have stretched their loving arms around me, which never failed to bring me to welling tears. it ain't no pretty sight, but despite that, i had a gut feel that GOD IS DEALING WITH ME.

my time alone with God were precious... every moment of it was. There was this specific quote that i got from one of my devotions that said it all.

"He cannot fail, your faithful God,
He'll guard you with His mighty power,
Then fear no ill, though troubles rise,
His help is sure from hour to hour." -
Bosch

GOD HAS NOT PROMISED TO KEEP US FROM LIFE'S STORMS, BUT TO KEEP US THROUGH THEM. it's just comforting to know that amidst tons of trials and tribulations, God is just there helping us get through every single one of it. This made me feel so light and happy inside. Lord, thank you!:)

let's just say that it was just a phase. i am now happy with what i'm doing... especially when there's the stated obvious that all my toiling is for the betterment of our environment... oh, such a noble deed!

after three weeks with GREENPEACE, i got a call from PLAN INTERNATIONAL, a child-centered international non-government organization. They asked me if i'd be interested to be an intern (with pay o'course). so, i thought to myself, "this could be a good start!" to make the long story short, i got the job and resigned from the former, of course, i felt sad for leaving GP - i have learned to love the job, and have become close with the people there and have gained friends. But life's like that, i had to make a decision... i wanted to work for and with kids... and this would only come to reality, if i'll work for Plan International...

so, that's how my life works... i prayed and waited upon God, and He was faithful to complete His plan for my life. i tried my best to succumb to His will - even if it may seem impossible to do. Yesterday, it was GreenPeace, it's Plan International for the present... i wouldn't know what the future holds...i'll just cling onto my Maker and believe that everything He has set is for my good... and good alone.

i know, i have uttered that "life isn't easy"... but the burden would be made light, if you know that you have God by your side, and that He'll never leave you behind...

"Life it ain't easy, it's so tough... it ain't easy. Put a smile on your face... make the world a better place."

optimism is the key, baby!:)