Mental note!

I had the most interesting conversation this morning.
Just when I was divulging certain snippets of my life,
a bit of those "dark" clouds started dissipating.

When will you ever learn? I was asked, several times.
When will I ever learn, I asked myself. When will I ever learn???

I believe that God creates those moments in our lives to teach us.
And He would plant them several times, until those things get through every crack of your stubborn brain. But it's more than just thinking about it, I need to step out and act...

Lord, help me trust in You.
I know that I don't share much about this side of life, but You see my heart.
You know what's in it, You know my desires.
Lord, shake me from my hardheadedness. I thank You for Your patience.
Help me. I'm willing to take the steps, the way You want me to...
Lead me. Help me see things the way You do.
Keep me still, allow me to hear, listen to you.
Take my heart...

Another one of those goodbyes...

25May2011, Wednesday
In one of my "discussions" with a friend.

So you haven't blogged for a while? How about those thoughts in your head? Your creative stories?
Well, they're just in a list. I feel so uninspired (to write).
Uninspired or busy? What inspires you to write then?
Hmmm. It just happens...

(Let's skip the other parts. Simply put, my friend "wrote" something and I thought of "using" it as an inspiration to complete this entry)

I think this friend somehow compelled me to write.
Write!

And I'm using his direct quote to cap this entry, as I'm saying goodbye and hello to certain bits of my life...



"So this is how it feels. I still recall every crack, every tack, every nick on the table. But I have to move on. Leave the past behind along with the people who hem me in. Freedom greets me at my new place replacing all the emotional turmoil I felt at my old place."

I had to do this to claim my peace, a grip on my sanity.
Give me my take on isolation. This is it for me.
I'm doing this halfheartedly, but I need to say goodbye.

Too melodramatic?
I know right?!?