on the day my only bestfriend had to go away... :(

Current mood: morose

we all have our very own best friends.. some of us may even have more than one of them... they've seen us in our ugliest, saddest, most beautiful... name any scenario... and i bet they were forever present...

well, why am i talking about such a thing? it's because mine would be leaving the country for good. we've been friends since we were 5... even if during our high school years we lacked quality time together, i still count her as my one and only best friend. We've been through a lot... and i'm grateful because despite the distance, we still find time for each other, and the spark in our friendship is still alive:)

i know that i should feel sad coz she's leaving, but i don't seem to understand why i do not even break a tear in this moment. i'm still in a state of shock because things seemed to have happened all of a sudden.

the thought that my best friend would not be there by my side physically is something i had never imagined... i know that i shouldn't be selfish and that i should be glad for her... coz she's doing it for her own good... and their family had decided on it already.

i guess, i should just accept things as they are... this is reality... people come and go... and why am i being such a paranoid... what's the use of email and texting, and long distance phone calls???? hmm.. technology is there to help bridge the gap... well, at least in a way. i guess, i would have to settle on that as of the moment.

i would want my best friend to know that i would certainly miss her... and on the day she goes away... she's taking a big part of our moments with her... she may be physically absent... but our friendship would forever stay in my heart...

haha.. it's too cheesy... well.. it's good to be sappy once in a while... :)

its finally over...

after five friggin weeks... i can finally say that im off for something better... it's pay back time!!!! all those sacrifices, sleepless nights, bonding moments iv missed (aka berxs gimmicks)... name it, im pretty sure iv endured it.... u myt be wondering what im blabbing about... oh well, call me a braniac, a nerd, or whatever... but it's about school... yep... im ecstatic coz school.. well, summer school is finally over!!!!! well, technically... i still have this one special proj or let's call it... article hunt to finish... (well, that's a whole diff story)... let's keep our fingers crsossed and hope that our prof would consider our alternative.. oh well, Lord, may Your favor be upon us... come to think of it.. everything seemed to have happened so fast.... it only seemed like yesterday, i was ranting about having to go through summer classes, and now.. it is finally over.. thank God!! well.. iv learned things through this month-long 'escapade'.. hehe.. what a description.... iv learned to be stronger... why???? because i have endured an uberly strict professor... and my friend calls him DocLa.... the terror prof.. he once humiliated me infront of the class.. oh well... life's like that iv realized that cramming IS really my forte... haha.... imagine, sleeping for 2 hrs max just to finish a ppr due the next day.... tsk...tsk... indeed, a bad habit... tsk tsk iv earned a new motto.... SLEEP ALL DAY... haha... yep... that's what usually took most of time.... because i was so tired from my morning classes.... haha.. swear!!!! iv had naps longer than 3 hours.... then i still get to sleep at night... haha... buhay baboy... tamad... basta, to make this long story short.... im just sooooooo glad that my summer classes are over.... yippppeeee.... i still have a few days before school officially starts.... hmmm... mga less than 2 wks ata... waterver... i hope me and my friends would make the most out of it.... i love this life... wooooooohhhooooooooooooooo.... haaaaaaaaaaay... life's sooooooo great!!!!!

ready to make a difference...

ready to make a difference....

right now.. im sitting in front of the pc.... but after a few hours of sleep... i am going to make a difference for my country... yes, it would be my first time so i would want my slate to be well-thought of.. i have prayed to the Lord that this time would be a lot different from the previous occurrences... well.. im talkin about the elections...

yes.. it is true that the whole world have their eyes on us... they would all want to know whether things would or would not turn our right for the Philippines... i would like to believe that the Filipinos are opt for something better....

everyone would have their indelible inks on their fingers... i would want my mark to be something im really proud of.... time should not be wasted as people would cast their votes... im sure mine would not be wasted

then counting would take place... may the officers check their conscience.... it's time to make a change.. im sure people are fed up with the lousy government... harsh but that's reality... it's about time God takes charge....

all that im saying is that... lets think carefully as we put the names of our candidates... make sure that the national leader is really worthy of the said position...

i am for righteous governance. i am for a Godly change. i am for Bro. Eddie

i am ready to cast my vote. . ready to make my voice heard. ready to be counted as a true Pinoy. ready to make my mark. i am ready to make a difference.....

are you?

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today... i do not know exactly what im feelin... i spent some minutes with this guy... and im not really sure if i like him.. i mean, he's nice and funny... and he is sooo my type... well, u might find it 'mababaw' but i felt happy when he touched my hand.. and softly patted my hair... that left me wondering.. and so i thought.. am i starting to have a crush on him????

well.. that's the reason for my confusion... it's nice to have crushes... well, i have tons of them actually... but they were mostly from TV shows or movies i've seen.. it's been a long time since i had a crush on someone i actually interact with... i do not know whether to push these feelings through.. hmmm... i guess i'll just let it grow freely... let's see where this would take me..