6.25.2004

overly confused...


Current mood: confused (duh!!!)

it's been days since i've been having this weird feeling inside me... i couldn't seem to think straight at some parts of the day... i know that deep down inside, there's something i need to deal with...

so, what am i talking about here? i actually don't know what i'm blabbing about... im just trying to pour all the thoughts out, then maybe later, get some sense out from all of it...

i once asked a friend for an advice, and he did give me one... but instead of really getting everything fixed, it just added to the gravity of my so-called 'burden

let's get things straight... i'm... again... talking about someone i THINK im having a crush on... come to think of it... he is... again... sooo my type. so, what's holding me back??? this guy friend i seeked advice from added confusion to my already confused mind. he said that this guy classmate i'm crushing on is making his move on me. i once told him a scenario in class and asked why someone would do such, and he concluded that the guy classmate was indeed, interested in me... i remember him (my guy friend) quoting, "chick ka kc e!"

anyway, so the next day of class came... he intended to sit beside me, and asked, "classmate, may nakaupo?" and in response, i took my bag out of the seat to give way. i was a bit panicky inside, but after a few seconds, he decided to transfer seats... and i unobstrusively observed him. i saw that he was just being friendly with our classmates, so i thought to myself, maybe he just decided to speak to me the other day... and that meant nothing.

so now, i've decided to let days go by... as is... if he speaks to me, then he speaks to me... let's see if something 'colorful' would come out of it. it's hard if i would assume that this would be a new episode to my almost non-existent love life.

right now... i would say that i do like him... his cute eyes that squint whenever he smiles... reminds me of my summer crush... but this guy i'm talking about is... way way cuter!!! :)

i hope that my 'assumptions' had facts attached to it... so i could be released from my 'overly confused' state at the end of the day...