2.15.2006

on THE day...

just when the whole world is celebrating a rather tacky event. im here sitting in front of my desktop clicking words away. hmmm. what a way to celebrate V-day. great. just great.

scenario 1:
i'm greeting you "happy valentines" because i think you're special...

hmm. special? as in parang siopao na may itlog na pula? or to make it sosyal, ice cream with cherry on top?!?


i didn't mean to be mean but i think it's just a wee bit weird that people do go out of their way just so they could express much love on this celebrated day.

i just think that it's a bit unreasonable to do such a thing. i never really saw the 14th as an occasion worth-celebrating for (something similar to Christmas, New Year's, or what not).
okay. i may sound cynical, but i'm just being realistic here. if we would want to celebrate love, why do we have to choose a single day to do it?!? when we have 365 full days to express them!!! i hope you do get my point.

kung gusto mo tlgang ipahiwatig ang pagmamahal mo sa isang tao... why do you have to wait for the 14th of february? para sa akin, mas special pa nga if you'll make the person feel loved out of sheer spontaneity. random acts of love. simply done. yet it comes from the most sincere part of the heart. aack. cheesy.

bottom line: if you think someone's special. let that person feel it. the whole year round:D


scenario 2: how does it feel to be with us on Valentine's day?

"bakit nandito ka lng? wala kang date? sa ganda mong yan? naku. pobreng bata.
yung iba ngang di kagandahan may date, tapos ikaw wala. "

one of my male colleagues told me that. hehe. i didn't mind. i had far more important things to do.
and it's not that no one invited me. well, someone did. kaya lng, i was too busy kasi kaya un.

this was his invitation: "i would really love to talk to you tonight, but it seemed impossible. maybe some other time. if there's a chance..."
i'm so sorry. it was pretty obvious that i was too preoccupied. i'm leaving the next day for an activity :(

okay. i didn't sulk the whole day. i went out with my colleagues for late dinner and drinks. tambay lng at the local hang-outs. it's cool to celebrate the day with a group. i had the chance to bond with the people i don't usually hang with:D

endless chatting. joke swapping. tummy-aching laughing. food munching. silly dancing.
we had so much fun. celebrating the night as if there's no tomorrow:D

they dragged me to join them in a circle. everyone was dancing. hehe. i love dancing. but i felt that it wasn't time for them to find out. so i was standing there. moving my body in limited motion. acting shy. well, i was shy. i'm not yet that comfortable with everyone in the group.

then the music shifted. soft, sweet melody was bolting out of the speakers.

the guy who dragged me to the dance floor was stretching his arm, asking if i could dance with him...
then he caught a glimpse on another figure and gave way...

it was him. the same person who asked if i could join him for the night.
i was a bit hesitant. a tad apprehensive. i can feel several eyes were darted to our direction.

"don't mind them. just think that it's just you and me... feeling the music"

he grabbed my hand. placed it on his shoulder. he wrapped his arms around me.
seems like a scene out of a cheesy romantic movie.

it felt awkward. people were watching. i'm not used to this. i jerked a bit. i told him that i don't feel like dancing. sweetandslow. he held on my hand tightly. i told him that i don't really feel like dancing.
and headed my way back to the group. back to our table. (bummer? on his part. i think.)

everyone wondered. that was fast. and someone even said this...

"wala yan sa music. kung gusto mo ang kasayaw mo, magsasayaw kayo kahit na ano pa ang tugtog..."
good point. i'm sorry. i didn't mean to be rude or anything. i was just not up for some slow dancing :

as the night was getting deeper. everyone was starting to have weird, quirky thoughts. kulitan to the max.
i didn't expect that i'd be put on the spot. i was on the hotseat!!! i was being processed by a colleague who was not much of a talker. i didn't know that he had a knack for probing on people's lives. and in fairness to him, he asks good questions. ala boy abunda on the buzz. hehe.

his way of questioning left me hanging. i mean, i was stuttering. i didn't know what to reply. all ears and eyes were on me. i can feel that i was flushed. shuxxx. it was so embarrassing:(

it was all about valentine-related queries. oh well.


scenario 3: will you marry me?!?

whoa!!! hold your horses, sweetie! what was that about?!?

"i have 5 witnesses before me. i want you to answer this question, will you marry me?"
was that supposed to be a joke?!? coz it ain't funny anymore. maybe you've had too much alcohol.

well, you've asked about my plans in life. getting married is one of them.
but don't you think that i'm still young to actually tie the knot?!?
i haven't been in a serious relationship, let alone get married!

flashback...
if someone would ask you to marry him, say, when you're 23... what would be your response?
23 is still too young for me, maybe when i'm 25 or older. then, i'll be ready.

we've talked about this. i was serious when i said that marriage was the farthest thing from my mind right now. it entails tons of commitment.
it truly is something big for me, i don't want to be hasty for it would put my life on the line.
and yours too. and the family that would come out of it.

if you're seriously considering me to be your wifey, you'd have to waaaaaiiitttt far longer than that, honey!

note to self: don't jump into things quickly. married life is complicated. far more complicated than you think it is. fulfill the things you truly aspire. you may not have the same chance once you've said, "I do"

.:0 SpanK Me:.

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