a friend's predicament...
Great. just great.
Just when V-day is just around the corner.
A friend had emailed me this long letter. venting her feelings. asking how to work on things.
Did she go to the right person? why me of all people? I've never been that involved to any kind of relationship. i'm just as clueless as she is...
What would you do if you were in the same predicament?
(note: names have been concealed to protect the bearer's identity. excerpts from what was sent me.)
this is a serious slice of the "pie". haha. oh well, i wish you'd keep an open mind. help me tlga ha? i hope you'd understand. wag mo kong sasabunin, id want someone to help me weigh things thoughtfully. salamat. coz i know that you are that person. (haha. prini-pre-empt na kita!)
oh well, where should we start?
alam mo nman diba, yung stand ko don sa "friendship" nmin. oh well. naguguluhan kc ako. i want to get to know him. kasi nga, i want to be friends with him. and nothing more than that. pero parang nagiging iba ang turn of events.
ang gulo kc ng set-up namin. we both know very well na friends kmi, but he's acting differently. haay. kasi nga ung mga kilos niya parang may meaning. well, it was pretty obvious actually, but i ddnt want to assume that there was indeed something.
then last monday, he asked me to join him for dinner. sumama ako. thinking that it was nothing. kasi nga friends nman kmi. so un. he kept asking if naiilang ako or something. well, i was a bit "ilang" pero carry lang. actually, breakthrough un kc i usually get weirded out with such meets e. ayaw ko na dalawa lng kmi ng guy, whether im interested with him or not. pero un nga, siguro i've gotten over that phase already. and hindi ko tlga siya nilagyan ng kulay.
anyway, he keeps on giving hints about "dropping the bomb".. naghihintay lang raw siya ng tamang timing. so, nung dinner na un, medyo parang sinabi na niya. na nagagandahan daw tlga siya sa akin. etc etc. and un nga, he was looking for something serious na raw. he didn't want to waste his time na raw on meaningless relationships. basta, mga ganyang bagay. (can you see what im driving at?) so prang ako, im just listening to a friend's predicament. i kept on nodding to show him that i get what he means. kasi to me, everything seems like "sharing" lang. malay ko ba na ako na pala ang pinapatamaan niya? hehe.
anyway, come wednesday. we had a "sit-down meeting".. hehe. while i was waiting for my roommate. so nagkwentuhan lng kmi. don na tlga niya sinabi that he likes me very much. and that he's attracted to me. etc etc. and he doesn't care if i feel the same way or not. what's important raw is that he's told about it. he's let it out of his chest. kasi raw he can't go on pretending that there's nothing when it's very obvious that there's something. and sana raw, hindi ako mailang or hindi magbago ung friendship now that he's dropped the bomb. (well, on my end nman. wala akong nasabi. prang natulala ako bigla. ewan ko kung bakit.) so un, nga pla, sinabi niya... na prang hindi naman daw kami "pwede" since nasesense nman daw niya na hindi mutual, tpos colleagues kami, and that may "sabit" .. may girlfriend siya. but he added that he's been thinking, and he's liable to his own emotions especially that he's not yet married. parang ganon.. he has the right to his own happiness.
well, parang breakthrough ulit. kasi usually, when guys tell me about their feelings, i tend to veer away from them. as in, iiwas na tlga ako. but with him, prang wla lng nangyari. parang wala akong narinig. parang normal lng. i don't know if that's a good thing or what.
tpos just last night, he invited me again for "bonding" we went to the beach. so un, ngkwekwentuhan lng kmi. then he said that my close friends confronted him raw. they asked him kung ano daw ba tlga. they told him that if ever he'd hurt me or scar my emotions, sila ung makakatapat niya. but he said that he wouldn't want to hurt me kaya nga he's being careful. pero un, inulit niya that he likes me very much. and if God wills, mga 3-4 years from now, baka raw pde na kaming maging kami (or at that, get married raw). basta, as of now, kinikilala pa niya ako. he wants to be close to me, to know more things about me. parang inaaral pa niya ako. something like that.
well un. lng. i honestly can't collect much from my thoughts. pero un, on my end, he asked about what i think. at hindi na nman ako nkasagot. he said that he didn't want to assume that i feel the same way raw. pero i bet, nasesense niya un. kasi may parang certain awkwardness. parng ganyan. pero sweetie, honestly, i havent told him anything. he doesn't have a zilch of a clue about how i feel towards him. should i tell him? sabi ng iba, wag ko raw munang sabihin. but i think im being unfair with him. pero fear ko rin that if id tell him, mpapabilis ang mga bagay. ayaw ko non. im not even ready for anything. ini-enjoy ko lng muna ung friendship.
pero parang weird ang friendship nmin. meron ba nmang friends na nghohold hands? umaakbay? mga ganyan? ewan ko tlga why i let him do that. nakakatakot. hehe. ung actions na prang pang-couples. ano ba to, pseudo-relationship. prang kayo pero hindi. oh well.
ang weird noh. don't worry sweetie.. hindi ko nman to hahayaan na mauwi sa "alam mo na".. i know my limits. and nguguluhan ako.. ayaw ko na ng masyadong touchy-feely kc he might get used to it. scary un. pero at the same time, it's comforting. ano ba. tulungan mo ako.
basta, help me. what should i do? should i tell him what i feel? or just go on like nothing was ever revealed. as for the touchiness. if id cut it off right away, mgtataka yan. and besides. ung mga "drobo" nya, it comes when it's needed. like last night, ang lamig kya he wrapped his arms around me. ewan. he likes to hold my hand lang. he was playing with it when we were sharing stories. mga ganyan. ngek. weird. so weird.
kung nbabaduyan ka. sorry. nababaduyan rin ako. hindi ko na nga lng siniseryoso e. kc if id be serious, mas babaduy. basta, basically, un ung issues ko.. and i would want to hear what you think.
please. please. pray for me. that id have the strength. i'll pray for you too.
_______________________________________________________
so, what would you do if you were in her shoes?
grabe naman. ang hirap ng mga ganyang bagay:(
maybe that's why i'm still uninvolved... to this day.
traumatic:(
me. shivering. *scary thoughts. go. away.*
Just when V-day is just around the corner.
A friend had emailed me this long letter. venting her feelings. asking how to work on things.
Did she go to the right person? why me of all people? I've never been that involved to any kind of relationship. i'm just as clueless as she is...
What would you do if you were in the same predicament?
(note: names have been concealed to protect the bearer's identity. excerpts from what was sent me.)
this is a serious slice of the "pie". haha. oh well, i wish you'd keep an open mind. help me tlga ha? i hope you'd understand. wag mo kong sasabunin, id want someone to help me weigh things thoughtfully. salamat. coz i know that you are that person. (haha. prini-pre-empt na kita!)
oh well, where should we start?
alam mo nman diba, yung stand ko don sa "friendship" nmin. oh well. naguguluhan kc ako. i want to get to know him. kasi nga, i want to be friends with him. and nothing more than that. pero parang nagiging iba ang turn of events.
ang gulo kc ng set-up namin. we both know very well na friends kmi, but he's acting differently. haay. kasi nga ung mga kilos niya parang may meaning. well, it was pretty obvious actually, but i ddnt want to assume that there was indeed something.
then last monday, he asked me to join him for dinner. sumama ako. thinking that it was nothing. kasi nga friends nman kmi. so un. he kept asking if naiilang ako or something. well, i was a bit "ilang" pero carry lang. actually, breakthrough un kc i usually get weirded out with such meets e. ayaw ko na dalawa lng kmi ng guy, whether im interested with him or not. pero un nga, siguro i've gotten over that phase already. and hindi ko tlga siya nilagyan ng kulay.
anyway, he keeps on giving hints about "dropping the bomb".. naghihintay lang raw siya ng tamang timing. so, nung dinner na un, medyo parang sinabi na niya. na nagagandahan daw tlga siya sa akin. etc etc. and un nga, he was looking for something serious na raw. he didn't want to waste his time na raw on meaningless relationships. basta, mga ganyang bagay. (can you see what im driving at?) so prang ako, im just listening to a friend's predicament. i kept on nodding to show him that i get what he means. kasi to me, everything seems like "sharing" lang. malay ko ba na ako na pala ang pinapatamaan niya? hehe.
anyway, come wednesday. we had a "sit-down meeting".. hehe. while i was waiting for my roommate. so nagkwentuhan lng kmi. don na tlga niya sinabi that he likes me very much. and that he's attracted to me. etc etc. and he doesn't care if i feel the same way or not. what's important raw is that he's told about it. he's let it out of his chest. kasi raw he can't go on pretending that there's nothing when it's very obvious that there's something. and sana raw, hindi ako mailang or hindi magbago ung friendship now that he's dropped the bomb. (well, on my end nman. wala akong nasabi. prang natulala ako bigla. ewan ko kung bakit.) so un, nga pla, sinabi niya... na prang hindi naman daw kami "pwede" since nasesense nman daw niya na hindi mutual, tpos colleagues kami, and that may "sabit" .. may girlfriend siya. but he added that he's been thinking, and he's liable to his own emotions especially that he's not yet married. parang ganon.. he has the right to his own happiness.
well, parang breakthrough ulit. kasi usually, when guys tell me about their feelings, i tend to veer away from them. as in, iiwas na tlga ako. but with him, prang wla lng nangyari. parang wala akong narinig. parang normal lng. i don't know if that's a good thing or what.
tpos just last night, he invited me again for "bonding" we went to the beach. so un, ngkwekwentuhan lng kmi. then he said that my close friends confronted him raw. they asked him kung ano daw ba tlga. they told him that if ever he'd hurt me or scar my emotions, sila ung makakatapat niya. but he said that he wouldn't want to hurt me kaya nga he's being careful. pero un, inulit niya that he likes me very much. and if God wills, mga 3-4 years from now, baka raw pde na kaming maging kami (or at that, get married raw). basta, as of now, kinikilala pa niya ako. he wants to be close to me, to know more things about me. parang inaaral pa niya ako. something like that.
well un. lng. i honestly can't collect much from my thoughts. pero un, on my end, he asked about what i think. at hindi na nman ako nkasagot. he said that he didn't want to assume that i feel the same way raw. pero i bet, nasesense niya un. kasi may parang certain awkwardness. parng ganyan. pero sweetie, honestly, i havent told him anything. he doesn't have a zilch of a clue about how i feel towards him. should i tell him? sabi ng iba, wag ko raw munang sabihin. but i think im being unfair with him. pero fear ko rin that if id tell him, mpapabilis ang mga bagay. ayaw ko non. im not even ready for anything. ini-enjoy ko lng muna ung friendship.
pero parang weird ang friendship nmin. meron ba nmang friends na nghohold hands? umaakbay? mga ganyan? ewan ko tlga why i let him do that. nakakatakot. hehe. ung actions na prang pang-couples. ano ba to, pseudo-relationship. prang kayo pero hindi. oh well.
ang weird noh. don't worry sweetie.. hindi ko nman to hahayaan na mauwi sa "alam mo na".. i know my limits. and nguguluhan ako.. ayaw ko na ng masyadong touchy-feely kc he might get used to it. scary un. pero at the same time, it's comforting. ano ba. tulungan mo ako.
basta, help me. what should i do? should i tell him what i feel? or just go on like nothing was ever revealed. as for the touchiness. if id cut it off right away, mgtataka yan. and besides. ung mga "drobo" nya, it comes when it's needed. like last night, ang lamig kya he wrapped his arms around me. ewan. he likes to hold my hand lang. he was playing with it when we were sharing stories. mga ganyan. ngek. weird. so weird.
kung nbabaduyan ka. sorry. nababaduyan rin ako. hindi ko na nga lng siniseryoso e. kc if id be serious, mas babaduy. basta, basically, un ung issues ko.. and i would want to hear what you think.
please. please. pray for me. that id have the strength. i'll pray for you too.
_______________________________________________________
so, what would you do if you were in her shoes?
grabe naman. ang hirap ng mga ganyang bagay:(
maybe that's why i'm still uninvolved... to this day.
traumatic:(
me. shivering. *scary thoughts. go. away.*
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