"scary" thought

lately, my family's been calling more often than they usually did.
i'm beginning to wonder...

do they really miss me that much? OR maybe they're sensing something... hmmmm.

it was fun actually. my dad was super excited. i can feel that everyone's soooo eager to share their own piece.

I love LOVE LOOOOVE GETTING UPDATES!!!:D

latest news: MY TITA (who's about my age by the way) GOT MARRIED THIS WEEKEND.

thoughts on this: hmmm. personally, i think they're too young to get married. i mean, the couple just graduated from college. are they really up for the challenge of a married life?!? well, they can be financially ready. both hailed from well-off families. but were they really sure of what they're getting in to? i know. i have no right to be nosy on other ppl's lives. i'm sorry. but then again, can you ever be ready to tie the knot? people can be well over their calendar age yet they still couldn't put together a harmonious "unit". oopsie. no pun intended. i'm just stating facts here. so what made me think that this young couple couldn't pull it off? hmmm. well, let's just pray that they could.

maybe, i'm just using my own ideals. I admit. I am tad bit idealistic. I want things to be perfect. Well, close to perfect before it could truly come through. I couldn’t see myself marrying someone in the spur of the moment. Well, that could be exciting, but it wouldn’t feel right. I believe that marriage is a life-long commitment that you’d have to prepare your WHOLE life for. Saying, “I do” to someone means your willing to share everything with him, no matter what. “I do” entails a lot of responsibilities. It means building a family and keeping it. You have to truly love everything about it. Every cinch of it. Just so you could hold on until it lasts. Sounds sappy? I know. But I would want my bond with my best half to be like that. Too good to be true? Perhaps. I didn’t say that I’d do it on my own. Of course, with God’s grace all these things can happen. Unveiled one beauty at a time. I can say that I am idealistic because I believe that God is preparing my man. He may not be the best guy there is… but God knows he’s gonna be my best. I’m in no hurry. I’m only twenty-one for crying out loud. I’ve never even been in a serious relationship. (haha. I sound like a broken record already. Forgive me.) I would patiently wait for the day when God finally puts a wonderful ending to a love story He’s craftily written...*sigh*


get this: MY DAD HAS MOTHER’S INSTINCT?!?

Yesterday. While we were talking on the phone. In the middle of chisms update, my dad asked me the question. Actually, I didn’t see that one coming. Hmm.

“Anak, baka may boyfriend ka na diyan? Remember. We would always find out.”

Is it possible that my parents are sensing something?
Hmmm…And my dad specifically?
How surreal. So in response, I told dear daddy this…

“Ngek. Daddy, pwede ba? Wala pa yan sa isip ko.” *me laughing nervously*

Come on. I didn’t lie to papa spaz. I told him the whole truth and nothing but IT.
I was honest when I told him that I DO NOT HAVE A BOYFRIEND. Coz I truly don’t have any. Well, there’s this guy at work that’ve told me he’s interested. But we’re just friends. Yes, as showbiz as it may sound, we indeed are friends. And that’s it. (but I’m not closing my door to possibilities… haha. Humirit daw ba?!? Let’s just say, “dearie, not now. Hmm. Maybe a few years from now would do.” – open-ended ang drama diba?)
But I was serious when I said that that’s the farthest thing from my mind. I feel that it’d be unfair to whomever if I’d get into a relationship for the darn sake of it. I don’t want to toy with people’s emotions. I believe that it’s gonna come back in greater magnitude. Ngak. Scary. Bad karma. Sowing and reaping. Tsk tsk.

Don’t think that I’m some kind of a cynical bitch. Who’ve sworn to loathe on love (and the thought of it) forever! I love love. It’s such a sweet feeling. Makes you look at the brighter side of life… it need not only be the romantic facet. I love it in every sense of the word. Keeps us alive. Aack. I sound like a member of the Moulin Rouge cast (what do you call that group again? The one where Ewan McGregor belongs to… those who believe in truth, beauty, and love?)

so, what am i driving at exactly?

well, let's just say. i am one hell of a hopeless romatic wanna-be.
a girl who doesn't want to admit that she'd love to be IN LOVE.

MAYBE i'm just waiting for the right guy to come along.

and to me he's someone who'd ...

sweep me off my feet through sweet yet simple things that he'd do
put up with my mood swings.
love me for who and what i am. cliche. i know.
be part of the family (the HUGE clan) that i truly love. this is so sooo important to me.
someone who would help me grow and know more of God. as we grow and know more of each other. aah, my God-written love story ^_^


perhaps you're ears had been bleeding because of my overflowing sappiness. forgive me.
maybe this is just one of those Valentine blues or reds? haha.

oo na. pang-ilang Valentine ko na ba tong single?
scary thought. sana hindi umabot ng 20 years. haha.