talk about equality.

...
yes, i was in the middle of work. so to speak.
my thoughts were far-out and flying.
and so i started to head into the blogosphere.

i remember (i used to) frequently visit a certain person's site.
so i thought, today's a good day..
skimmed through her limitless list of whatnots.
i chanced upon something familiar, elmer by gerry alanguilan

that mere thought brought me to two weeks ago.
that lazy saturday, my sister prodded me to check out the graphic novel she brought from work.
(ah, the perks of working for a publishing house. sneak peeks. freebies and what not. a whole diff story...)

spent a few good hours skimming into the cool artworks. quirky script.
and oddly engaging plot that was elmer.
i can't help but wonder if this did happen in real life, how would things be?
taking equality into a (whole) different level.
i'm not sure if i'm even ready for that...



wait a minute, how come you're growing huge q-marks all around?
i'm pretty sure you're dying to find out... well, go and get a copy and see for yourself!

how could you be so heartless

"no, i'm not blurting that statement out."

it happened to be a line in my favorite song, heartless.
this has been a permanent fixture in my playlist.
and yes, played over and over like twas some sortof mantra.
not that i'm cussing the heavens for some random guy who broke my heart. ha-ha.

let's cut to the chase....

well, some months back while i was watching MTv. i chanced upon the fray's version of the song.
i felt my eyes grow bigger, heart racing... gahd, that was cool. my mind went blank and i got glued to the tube. ogled at the video's uber cool concept. oh dear, oh dear!

i heart the fray! i heart heartless! i sooo luuuurve what i was seeing!!!!
a match made in heaven. i can go die now... (nah!)

take a good look at it, and you'll know what i'm yapping about.


The Fray - Heartless (Official Music Video) - The best video clips are here


oh, i have one bit of message for kanye though:
"yo, kanye! the fray did it better, y'know!"


peace out!

((i say: gahd, i wish i'm that artsy. and doodle that way...))

another one of those lucid dreams

for some weird reason. you suddenly decided to shut me off your world.

oblivious. aloof.
been wracking my head. what the hell did i do wrong this time?!?
gahd, i can't think of any.
swallowed my pride. tried my darn best to reach out to you.
and no, this is not the first time, you know that.

but all i get is... NOTHING!
not even a word, i can take it if you're mad. but come on, bring the message across.
i'm starting to think how hard it is to deal with you. i hate the fact that you are a tad high-maint.
is this your way of punishing me? well, guess what, you're an inch in achieving your sweet success.

i know i don't deserve this. i'm aware that i should be the "bigger man", to be more open to understand. but where should i come from?!? gahd, the anguish. mental anguish.
i'm sure you haven't had enough, guess what... i'm even bothered in my sleep.

i had the weirdest of all dreams. twas so surreal. lucid in fact.
you were there, a rather familiar scenario. and some of our common links played a part.
and yes, i got the same cold treatment. i tried to shove it off.
gave you the distance, you obviously would want.
then poof, i awoke. time to get back to reality... sigh. heave a deep and heavy sigh.

for what it's worth, i won't bug you for as much time as you want.
i wouldn't want to appear like a pathetic schmuck, asking how things are.
i'm trying so hard not feel frustrated. gahd, it sucks to feel this way.
you know that i can take as much criticisms and outbursts.
but please, bring things to the table. no more mind games, if you'd consider it that.

for the record, i don't hate you.
i just hate what's going on. coz i obviously do not know what happened in between what?
you are still my dearest friend. i honestly recant our happy days together.
i look behind me when i walk in our common places, hoping i'll chance upon you...

i asked God to help me get through this.
i'm not used to being less confrontational, and be the "bigger man".
but i'm trying my best to be that.
coz i know how fragile you are, and i wouldn't want to add little cracks or further damage.
i want you to know that i'm sad. i feel it in the deepest pit of my stomach.
i have shed tears, hot tears. obsessive thoughts, recalling what i've done (i know i sound pathetic).

we all have quirks and mishaps, and i want you to know that despite such, i love you just the same.
i can only take in as much...

i just pray that things would be okay. and i mean, really okay.
sigh...

((I say: see, how i've been bothered that i finished this post, prioritized it over work. haaay, buhay))

trouble sleeping.

slept in the early part of the day.
so, i'm pumped up... couldn't sleep.

been meaning to work on my look(let).
here's my first take on fash.

safe. but i like it.